Saturday, August 14, 2010

Joblessness

"Joblessness" a word borrowed from a friend, made me laugh when he said it at first. But now, it has become the  perfect description of my present situation. With school over and no college before September, I have a lot of time to kill. The perpetual clouds of boredom are all around me. They at times create an aura of depression and at times that of exuberance. Depression because of loneliness and nothing to keep me preoccupied and exuberance because I'm going to enter a new phase of life, a phase that I look forward to happily. 

Enduring months of stress is not a condition any person enjoys. After a lot of stress now that I get some time for myself, I do not like it. 
Sometimes I feel I was better off in school, who doesn't?  At least then you had something or the other on your mind, be it looking forward to meeting friends or a class that you loved. They were simpler times. Times, that I miss badly right now. I miss my friends, I miss my teachers, I miss those rubbish talks in school, the fights, the classes, the campus, the ambiance, the stupid prayer services ..everything. 

This is what boredom does to you, your mind starts wandering in different useless directions.

This "Joblessness" is killing me. The only thing I can do now is be hopeful for a new beginning and pray that this phase, the phase of "joblessness" never haunts me again.